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I have been working really hard on setting up my life to never really fall back the past couple of months. I’ve been jumping in and out of opportunities, interviews, jobs, cities and just about every idea I’ve ever had. Then all of a sudden my exact plan came into being exactly the way I want it with minimal stress. It’s kind of a shock to me at this moment as I look around for something to complain about but I can’t. All the plan requires me to do now is sit and let the time pass to make the next move. I have absolutely NO COMPLAINTS!
I guess it’s part of always being in motion that when shit actually stops you look around and check for bullet wounds. I can’t find not one fault in the stage in life I’m in now and it makes me nervous a bit. Not nervous like I’m going to fall but nervous like a person who can’t believe it’s real. This whole summer I have been on the road making little shit happen so big shit could happen and I’m finally at the last stage. The Big Shit is around the corner and now all I have to do is shutup and not fvck it up myself.
I feel like a soldier who has been fighting for years to come home and watch people make a fantasy football league. It’s like my reality has shifted so much that to wake up with nothing to do and nothing to worry about is weird. I’m doubling back to working on myself while keeping my eye out on the sky checking for gray clouds. I’m refocusing on my eating habits. I’m disciplining myself to control my language aka cursing too damn much and shit! I’m actually rolling out and enjoying my life maybe 3 times a week now when it used to be once every two. I’m making plans to be in NY soon and hang out with my folks who got their business and their businesses running and profitable.
Damn, I think I’m at peace… but I’m still looking for something to Complain about!